I take heart in knowing that other’s still care. But truly, I feel that only a few truly understand. Some around me try to understand and just go with the flow, not having experienced this themselves. Some try to understand and try to say the right thing. And there are some who do truly understand, have walked the path, yet say nothing.
There is someone close to me that has no idea truly, what I am going through, however her kind words echo through my mind and my heart. When I don’t know where to turn, when I feel completely overwhelmed, when I don’t understand my emotions I turn to those words. Sometimes saying them helps, sometimes it makes me stop and think, and sometimes it just resonates. One of the things that she said was “I truly believe that everything happens for a reason”. I agree with her, though it is tough to hear and to take in some times, God lets everything happen for a reason. As much as I would love to know is why this, I also know I will never truly know why.
She also said that I was one of the strongest people she knows, if anybody can get through this I can, and based on that she knows that I will ge through this and that one day I will truly be blessed in a big way. Hmmm…I am strong. Do I feel like that? Sometimes I do. Other times when the tears are flowing I think, really? Am I really strong? I may not always agree with that statement, but having someone else believe it, helps me believe in myself. One day, I will be able to stand up tall and say with confidence “I am strong”