This was a question that came across my email (http://www.pursuingyourcalling.com/take-risks-in-your-calling/?gseaftercommentingmodal) from a group called “Pursuing Your Calling” that I joined. I joined the group months back when I began to think that I needed to take a break from teaching. However, taking a break from teaching meant having to figure out what I would do instead. Hmmm….what would I do instead? I had learned and acquired a lot of skills through my years of teaching I could easily transfer, but what would I transfer them to? That seemed to be the magic question. So, through 48 days.net I came across the group and they send out weekly emails, as well as blog post questions and stories. After doing some deep searching and a lot of thinking I came to the conclusion I wasn’t ready to completely give up teaching and working with children. I knew I needed to find a happy medium between what I was doing, what I wanted to do, and where I wanted to go with it. Not to mention, what I what I wanted and need to get out of it.
With teaching comes a lot of responsiblities, some stress, and some worries. This can all be taken in stride, but doing it for 10 hour days, 4 days a week was getting to be a little too much for me. Don’t get me wrong though, there are definately rewarding sides too, but I was beginning to loose sight of these. So, after many talks with Raun and many talks with my bosses we came to many conclusions. I say many because we would come up with an idea, that in theory, sounded good but in all praticality wasn’t going to work. Finally after spending an evening walking down by the river and talking Raun helped me to come up with a great idea. Why don’t I switch over to subbing and on call? We both knew that it was something that my work needed. I am able to go into any room and do what is necessary to help things get through the day. Plus, I have my bus license so I can help out with school bus runs and field trips. It seemed like a great idea. It would give me the flexibility to choose my schedule, as well as give me what I feel I need.
What do I need? I feel that I need more me time, more time with Raun, more time with family and friends, and time to share my story. Having the flexibility in my work schedule will allow me to do this. My bosses were on board. They liked the idea, but also didn’t. They understood that this was something I needed, but they were sad because they feel that my skills are best utilized in a classroom. That’s where I am at my best.
At my best? Well, maybe before the loss of Samantha. As the Summer months wore on, my best was slowly going downhill and I was loosing sight of why I wanted to be a teacher. This, will give me the break I need to refocus and better understand this new path I am on. To be honest, when back to school time came around I was okay with not having a classroom of my own any more. A friend and co-worker said to me “then it means you have made the right decision and you are ready”.
Ready or not…my subbing schedule now goes into affect. After having made the decision a month ago, this up coming week it goes into effect. Honestly, at first I was like “oh crap!”, but then after taking a deep breath and remembering why I decided to do this I was okay again.
Here’s to taking risks! What risk or risks are you taking or have you taken recently?