Honestly this post comes with an inspiration from a sermon I heard. What are the signs of light, love, and hope that you see? This is fairly easy when things are good, but what about when things seem to be at their darkest. How do you find light, love, and hope in the darkness? The blessings in disguise so to speak. Light, love, and hope are always around even at the deepest ruts, ravines, darkness, and despair. They maybe be hard to see or find, but they are there somewhere. They may be hidden or subtle, but they are there.
It is in these harder, darker, tougher times when we need light, love, and hope the most. Even though they may be hard to find, we need to dig deep to find them. Sometimes we may need help to do this and that’s okay. The help can come from friends, family, church, group, or whatever works best for you. There will be other times when we can slowly find them and our way on our own. But even on our own, it is still good to have a little extra backup support every now and then.
Finding my light after Samantha had been tough. I submersed myself in work, pushing down much of what I was thinking or feeling. My blog writing was made up of my journal writings from early on-I just transferred them from paper to website. The idea of new or current content was not something I thought about adding until many months later. So my emotions, when they would finally surface, came out in tears on the drive to and from work. By the time August of 2011 rolled around I began to realize what I was doing.
I knew changes had to be made and I needed to find others that I could meet up with face to face that could relate. My light at that time was to give up my current position at work for something not as full time and flexibility. It was time to take care of us and me. At this time, I also began going to an infant/pregnancy loss group and talking about my thoughts. I also began to write more.
My next ray of light showed up through an Illuminate group. This became a close knit group of eight of us, who are still able to connect now even though the class is done. This brought the light of photography back in to play and I remembered how much I enjoyed it, as well as realized that it been a missing link in my life for a little while. So, I try to incorporate photography more often.
Photography, my groups, my writings, and support have given me the love that I have so needed, which has helped to make my light shine brighter. With my light shining brighter, I am able to have a renewed sense of hope. With this renewed sense of hope, I believe that I can move forward with more strength and courage.
So, I want to know…what brings you hope? What makes your light shine a little brighter? If you need to, lets dig deeper together to help a little light grow. Because if that light can grow, so will hope. What can you do today to help your light grow?