I have decided to take part in Let’s Blogoff.  A few times a month they put out a blog topic, then I get to think on the topic and create a blogpost with my thoughts.  These topics give me a chance to think deeply on topics I normally wouldn’t, expand my horizons, and delve deeper into learning more about myself and where I may be headed in life.  For example, the last topic was entitled “What is Home?”.  It is an opportunity to not give the short and sweet answer to the questions.  Instead, it makes you mull it over and share your thoughts.

This time the topic is “What did you want to be when you grow up?”  This for some can be a fairly simple recall and easy to answer.  Well, I have been thinking on this topic on and off for the past couple of days.  I can get back to the high school years pretty easily, when I can remember coming to the conclusion that I either wanted to be a teacher or be involved in interior decorating.  I also remember having someone tell me that as long as they could remember I always wanted to be a teacher.

Alright, now to look back even farther in the years.  I very vaguely remember playing teacher as a little kid with my friends or family every so often.  I don’t remember ever saying outright, “I want to be ______ when I grow up”.   Thinking about it now, I don’t recall really thinking about it much at all.  In my mind, I was just being a kid, doing kid sort of things.

Well, seven years out of college and I am a teacher.  However, over time I am beginning to change the direction I am going in.  I am changing my focus.  I wonder sometimes what it would have been like if I went down the path of interior decorating.  I get my feet slightly wet in that area by decorating my own house, as well as helping my folks decorate areas of their house.  For me, honestly, getting my feet slightly wet is enough to let me know I made the right choice at the time. 

Looking down the road I am not so sure I will still be a teacher when I grow up.  I am one right now, but I do think that will change as I get older.  So, looking forward…what do I want to be when I grow up?  I want to be a mom and raise our family.  I want to do more with my photography.  Photography is what strongly pulls me now and I want to continue to grow that.  I want to find a way for me to take my experiences from this year of losing our daughter and help others who are walking the path of pregnancy loss & infant loss.  If I can find a way to combine all three of these desires into one goal, then that will be what I want to be when I grow up.

I don’t know exactly where my meandering path is going to lead me, but I do know what direction I am heading in as of now.  So, what did you want to be when you grow up? or what do you want to be when you grow up?

Liz Lauterbach

Wife, Mom, Photographer, and Writer walking the path of healing by sharing my story. http://www.myinfantloss.com
  • http://bluecollarliving.com James Dibben

    All Julie ever wanted to be was a mom and a wife. Nothing wrong with that!

    Nothing wrong with being a teacher either.

    I like what you are doing with this sight.

    • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=616156917 Liz Lauterbach

      Thanks James. I think with everything that happened earlier in the year that my perspective has changed on what is important, which changes what I want to be and where I want to head in the future.

  • http://www.cft411.com Joe Freenor

    There’s nothing wrong with being a mom all the time, if that’s what you want. One of the most profound comments I ever heard came from a woman I met while taking an art appreciation course in junior college, some years before I got married. She was a wonderful warm person who was happily married with several children. I know she was older than me (I had no interest in her THAT way—she was just someone I liked), but in memory she always seems young because she was so vibrant. I always thought of her as Earth Mother.

    Anyway, she had a business that was not doing well, and the oil embargo in 1973 was the final straw. She was selling imported household items and her sources were drying up. She and her husband decided they were going to sell up everything, get some money, buy a boat and go on a cruise around the world for a year or more! I remember her saying, “You live all your life with people, and you never really touch them. Now we will.”

    I lost touch with her soon thereafter—she was just a classmate—but I like to think she actually pulled it off. But she affected me more than she will ever know, because in 35 years of marriage (no kids), I have to say that the best part of the day, for both of us, is just having coffee together in the morning. Retirement can’t come fast enough, because then we will be all to do that all the time. Not much of a goal, I suppose, but, hey, it works for us!

    • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=616156917 Liz Lauterbach

      Thanks Joe!

  • http://twitter.com/modicana Pat Eggleton

    I’m sure you will combine all those roles successfully.

  • P Anater

    One of the concession prizes to living in a system without any kind of job-for-life security is that you can always pick something else to be. I know I certainly have –more than once! Thanks for your post today and thanks for adding your voice to the Let’s Blog Off crew.

  • http://twitter.com/builderforlife Marcus Taylor

    I love the idea that what we want can be as strong subconsciously as consciously. Admire you’re continuing dream with photography also.
    Thanks for your thoughts

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