When you think of “awareness” and the month of October, most people’s thoughts go to Breast Cancer Awareness Month. If you happen to be a teacher, then you also toss in Fire Safety Month. What most people don’t know, is that it is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness. October 15 is not only a nationally recognized day when people who have experienced pregnancy and/or infant loss come together to honor their child(ren) who have grown their angel wings, but it is also a worlwide recognized day. I would have never known about this myself until we experienced the loss of Samantha. With her loss I have began to learn a lot. Sometimes, it is a lot more than I want to learn, but yet at the same time it is helpful and good to know. Miscarriages and stillbirths are still a comon thing to happen and as common as they are, so is not talking about them. However, as time goes by more and more people are speaking about the topic and creating awareness. They are “breaking the silence”. It’s not always easy to talk about, it’s not always easy to hear, but it needs to be talked about in order to create a better understanding. By designating a month to create awareness and having a day to help recognize and honor those who have been lost is a start in the process of breaking the silence.
In honor of Samantha we lit several candles. We participated in “the wave of light”, that created a contious wave of light across the world in recognition of pregnancy loss and infant loss.
What made this day even more special and touching is that I found out on the morning of October 15 that I get to participate in an online course by Illuminate that uses photography as a way to help heal and work through the grief process. The photo that I submited for the contest was a collage of photos I took during my last visit to the memorial wall. It was at the end of a tough week and I need to be somewhere that was quiet. A place with little distractions and with the hope of feeling closer to my little girl. And hoepuflly I would come awy with a slightly clearer head and less weight on my shoulders. It was a visit that I know she was there, because there was a dragonfly that sat with me.